This week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week. In honor of this week, we will be posting “Dear Body” letters written by our members throughout the week. If you’d like to submit your own, please upload your letter to our “Submission” or “Ask” links on our Tumblr homepage.
I’m sorry I was unable to love you for so much of my life. I’m sorry I let my family’s disapproval affect my relationship with you, with myself. I’m sorry that my inability to accept myself was because of how closely tied my flaws were to you. I’m sorry that I still cannot accept you wholeheartedly, even though I know that I am me because of you.
You are me. Thank you for teaching me that. Thank you for teaching me that being different from the ideal does not make me ugly, does not make me flawed. Thank you for teaching me that people who cannot love my body have something flawed within them, not within me. Thank you for being me, even when I could not be me. Thank you for being reality, when all I could think about was superficiality. Someday, I will love you enough, love me enough, to stop wearing baggy clothes, to stop crossing my arms, to not be afraid to approach the scale. But for now, thank you for showing me that accepting myself, loving myself, means loving everything that is “wrong”, everything that is different, more than loving what is “right” , what is conforming. Thank you, for making me special, for giving me something to write about, for being me when I hated it, for being me and making me into someone who I am happy and proud to accept and love. Thank you.
Lots of love,